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[06 Jun 2004|10:02am] |
Summer
Niel Graduated! (Congrats!)
I'm finding a job
Planning on going to SF
Drivers ED I'm too lazy
Art classes
hiking in the morning. yes me getting in shape.. every fucking morning.
Boring as all summers.. or Not? I'm going to make this a summer to remember.. last one with Niel... and I'm gunna have fun with friends. No wasting time no bored days!
Ashley
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| Weekend |
[09 May 2004|08:45pm] |
Friday- Spent time with Niel.. rented a movie and cuddled It's gunna make me cry when I can't cuddle every friday and saturday night. I love YOU.<3
Saturday- Catherine you did not ruin our plans! Miscommunications with parents of where we were gunna sleep ended up with us going back to sleep at Catherine's. Mom stopped trusting me after a friend of mine lied to my mom when I wasn't even with her. That bites I feel bad but it isn't my fault but I understand the girl needed to cover oh well! Pretty low key night ... it was cool to become friends with Catherine since I'm not very big on Louisville (spelling?) girls.. I guess I judged them wrong!
Sunday- Happy Mommy's Day! Went to Malibu.. worked out (there's a first time for everything) then tanned. I Miss Niel!
Yes and school is 2marrow. Maybe I'll be crazy and start talking to myself in class again.
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| I don't even remember |
[29 Apr 2004|08:09pm] |
FUNNY STORY
So picture this... geometry class and I'm sitting in the back on problem five and we are going throught them in class. Then all of a sudden I blank out... The next thing I know the class is laughing. I ask what was going on and a girl goes... Were you just on your cell phone during class? I ask her what she's talking about and everyone laughs more. The teacher quiets us down. I wisper to the girl closest to me and ask her what everyone was laughing at. She goes.. We'll for the past 5 minutes you've been talking to yourself. I look down at my paper and realize I'm still on problem #5 and then I look at the board and they are on problem #15.. This means I blanked out for about 5 minutes and I don't even remember it. To top it off everyone things I'm crazy because I carried on a conversation with myself!
Don't call me crazy or anything
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| Prom |
[04 Apr 2004|11:48am] |
Last night was prom...
-Got ready at niel after i got my mae-up and hair done.
-Took the limo to Loyola and gambled, ate, and danced. Every1 looked so pretty. We took lots of pictures so I'll post them later.
-After prom we took the limo to the beach and ran around for a lil while, then went back to my house since no1 was home. But the people in our limo were gay. Stupid Bitch with blonde hair! So they left. THANK GOD ACTUALLY!They said they were going to sleep in a park. GoodI hope the bloody sprinklers turned on on them. So Joe's gf left and Joe went to bed. Niel and I hung out for a while and finally feel asleep at like 4:30. It was so amazing to wake up next to him the next morning. He's so cute when he just wakes up with morning breath. So since last night Joe forgot his keys at Niels house and his car was at my house. They had no ride home in the morning. So we called around but no1 could give them around. We decided to want to Jamba Juice and as we r walking, we see my mom sitting drinking coffee (She was suppose to be in SB) She doesnt say anything as we walk by (We were suppose to be at home with my sister) Niel turns and says hi and we ask her for a ride. Finally she gives in after much yelling at innocent me! She is now driving them home while i am typing this. Niel is comming back so Joe can pick his car up and then I think I'll make him stay with me <3 actually Loyola has school tomarrow HA and marymoutn is out for break so I'll chill with Sarah later.
-All in all Prom was amazing and I'll never forget it. I'm so fucking in love with him . Best night of my life. God I cant left this guy go off to college. Thatll rip my heart out. God I wish every1 knew how much I love him.
<3
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| Valentine's Day |
[15 Feb 2004|10:20am] |
So 2day was Valentine's day... Niel came over and brought me roses, balloons, chocolates, and a beautiful necklace.. Thank you so much sweety! We decided to go to Knotts Berry Farm, which turned out to be very fun, including the fact that the number 69 was everywhere all night hmm wierd? All in all it was a really sweet v-day! I Love You Nielly
A+N A+F
Ashley
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| The cloud |
[05 Jan 2004|09:31pm] |
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Loving you is like life
I live it
I breathe it
and to live without it would be like dying
Evrery day deeper you fall
into the mystery we call love
consuming every bit of yourself and causing you to exist on a cloud
that carried you away from day one
swept you off of your feet
until you were so high in the air that nothing could bring you down
The only wind that could blow my cloud to pieces would be if you werent flying on the cloud beside me.
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| the best birthday ever |
[28 Sep 2003|07:38pm] |
I told every1 I'd never post again but I have to say this one last thing....
I hate birthdays usually but thanx to every1 it was the most amazing birthday ever...
-Christina caitlin and Niel and I went to the Dashboard, Brand New, and MXPX concert this week.
-got presents from family and friends and youll never know how much these things mean to me... (Christina, Nielly, Jessie, My family, Emily, Mia, Caitlin, Lizzie, and every1 else who made my day special)
-last night was the Loyola dance and I got to spend it with Niel he brought me roses and a balloon for my birthday cuz I though I wouldnt see him 2day on my birthday but...
he surprised me at my house this morning and gave me more roses and then he took me to malibu and we went on an amazing hike and then went to dinner then came home and slept and cuddled cuz we r both really sick (which made this day even better and I'm serious) and we took care of eachother and then he gave me presents .....this really amazing shirt and a silver ring that has a heart and a diamond in the center... lets just say I started to cry...
I cant explain how amazing it feels when someone actually cares about you as much as you care about them..I hope every1 gets to feel that way one day. I love you Niel A + N A + F
Thank you every1 for giving me the best birthday ever!
_my last post....?_
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| Stress comes from fear |
[30 Aug 2003|12:49pm] |
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My theology teacher said something that hit me hard..."Stress comes from fear"
Which means I'm crying out of fear
Fear of why my mom is so sad
Fear of what's going to happen at the end of this year
Fear of why I'm all alone
The worst part is I cant control any of these things.
I cant stop my mom from being so sad because she wont tell me whats wrong and even if i knew I couldnt change it
I cant control whats going to happen at the end of this year
I cant control every1 else being busy and me being here wondering why I'm not
Worst of all is what's going to happen at the end of this year....
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[20 Aug 2003|11:19pm] |
How sad do I look?
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| I drove I drove I drove! |
[20 Aug 2003|09:12am] |
AH! Niel decides to surprise me and go to a parking lot and I'm like hmm I really dont get wtf we're doing here...and he tells me to get out of the car so I do and he tells me he's gunna teach me to drive in the same parking lot he learned in! so after completely struggling to get out of doing it he makes me and I drove and did it fairly well i may add! it was the cutest surprise ever!
I love you Nielly
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[18 Aug 2003|11:05pm] |
Friskygnome: you two are such perfection
Friskygnome: even in any unperfection it makes more perfection
LostNBlondiWrld: aawwww
Thanks LeeLa I couldnt agree more!
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| Niel |
[18 Aug 2003|01:01pm] |
How can you love someone so much?
*When they inspire you to be yourself and be even better at it
*When they are the most perfect person you know
*When you can be with them but still miss them
*When you find yourself appologising to them for any stupid little mistake you make
*When everything they do is perfect and anything that seems at 1st wrong they can make up for
*When you find out something new about them every day
*When you're writing this or reading this you get butterflies
*When you give them a hard time at 1st you love seeing the confused look on their face and how pursistant they are and then you feel like the worst person in the world for making them struggle
*When you worry about them 24/7 even when you know you trust them
*You cant help think about them all day every day
*You know that you would die for them..honestly
*You've planned your future with them and then you realize the plans with so extreme and amazing that they dont even matter anymore all that matters is that you're going to be there with them
*When you cry just because they called
*When you dont know why or how you met and fell in love in the 1st place when you werent even looking for love
*When you know you've changed so much over the past months and you feel so good about yourself because they believe in you
*You would sit in the rain for hours just to see them do what they love to do and be supportive
*When you can finish eachothers sentences
*When you get to the point that you are so comfortable with eachother that you can burp and not feel embarassed
*When this person makes you cry for hours and yet you tell yourself you wont forgive them and them 5 minutes later they call you and make up for it and then your back in their arms again
*When you find yourself saying I love you and meaning it
*When you wish you could make their pain go away even if it means you would have to live with their pain
*When you want to call them at 1 in the morning and leave them a message saying i miss you just because you thought of them
*When you can admit to other people that you are in love
*When every flaw the person has makes them the amazing person they are
*when you know you cant see yourself being with any1 else
*When you know one day you want to meet this person again years from now and marry them and live on the beach with them and just be happy watching them surf all day
*When saying all of this means nothing because words cant describe the feeling you have for this person
This is why I love Him and I always have and always will
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| End of summer |
[14 Aug 2003|10:50am] |
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Updates on the end of summer:
-I'm a tad sick...thanks a lot to my neck being way outa wack!
-Christina is home!
-Its so hot that I've gone numb (trust me its possible)
-I have an exchange student staying at my house...in my god damn room!
-Niel comes home early sunday morning! <3
-I found out there is nothing to do in L.A
-I need a new computer
-I love that school starts in 2 weeks and I still havnt finished pride and prejudice!Plus i have no classes with any1!YES YES YES!!! A splendid sophmore year!
-I havnt seen my friend Ashley in ages and I really need to see her
-My mommy is so sweet..she bought me big sticks!
And now summer comes to a close
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| Vacations |
[06 Aug 2003|05:24pm] |
Christina-5 days left (oregon)
Niel-9 days left (hawaii)
Mia-leaving on saturday (alaska)
Alex-leaving on sunday for good (Az)
Caitlin-long gone (cruiz)
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| Past few days |
[04 Aug 2003|11:43am] |
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Spent 2 days with LeeLa it was a blast...we went to the dollar sale and I got nothing but then went on Melrose and I got sum shit. Later that night we went to the Like concert. Which had sum girl from Marymount in it who thought her band was such hot shit but they sucked. Sum some old friends there...probably the most akward thing ever. It's sad when people can't accept you for who you are in the 1st place it really ruins things but anyways.... Hadnt talked to Niel in 2 days and I started to get worried but then he called and woke me up this morning...he may come ova later (hopefully) because it's the last day I'll get 2 see him before he goes to Hawaii I'm gunna miss him like crazy plus be a tad worried I mean beaches + beach babes= Hawaii NOt a goood combination!
Going to see LeeLa 2marrow for her Birthday!!! Happy Birthday tomarrow LeeLa
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| Please fill this out |
[02 Aug 2003|05:30pm] |
How Well Do You Know Me?
1. Whats my full name?
2. What's my favorite color? (my god if you don't get this question you've never met me!)
3. How many siblings do I have?
4. How tall (I mean short) am i?
5. What lesbian school do I go to?
6. Who is my favorite actor?
7. Who do I tell everything to?
8. What do I want to be when I'm older?
9. How many languages can I speak?
10. What's my best quality?
11. What's my worst quality?
12. Would I rather hook-up or date a person?
13. What is a nickname that would best fit me?
14. What am I afraid of?
16. How do you know me?
PaPaPalease fill out <3
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| These are the days |
[30 Jul 2003|04:24pm] |
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Deleted my last entry cuz this one will be way more meaningful!
So 2night I figured would be dull as fuck but it turned out to be great.. I relived my childhood. Ya it sounds odd but I did. Went to Mia's and we decided to go to the park around the corner like we did when we were little. We swung on the swings and just had fun. We hung out at her house then went back to my house and watched Now and Then Which is my favorite movie!
Mia left and I went to wash my face and I looked in the mirror and I guess I finally realized I'm living the best years of my life. I know every1 says that but it just became a reality. I got to relive my childhood with Mia and then figure out that I have to live life.I'll look back and say these were the best years of my life and I want that to be true.
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| GUITAR FOR SALE |
[27 Jul 2003|02:06pm] |
This guitar was once owned by Rod Stewart but We had it all redone and it hasnt been played since so it's in perfect condition! I have to get rid of it soon so I'm taking a pretty low price.... comment if you're interested!Thanks
_Ashley_
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